之前... 真的以为自己会留下来念form6了...
真的下定决心... 要发奋读书了...
到头来... 原来还是要走...
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今天... matrix 2nd intake的名单出了...
早上... 我完全忘了有这么一回事...
一直到到了学校... 朋友说她中到了...
chem节时.. 老师告诉我... "Emily, u get matrix also..."
当时... 第一个想法就是... "我不去了... 我留下来..."
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但是... 真的想不到的是...
整个6BS2里竟然有10个人一起中到...
而且他们都决定去了...
再加上... 爸爸妈妈真的希望我去...
( 他们甚至紧张到跑到学校找我... )
我...
最终决定...
" 我.. 去.. MATRIX..."
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当时一直在想...
神要我走的路到底是什么...??
为什么要在我下定决心努力读form6时... 突然又给我中matrix...??
去买机票的途中...
心里还一直想说... 这是神要我走的路吗...??
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买机票时...
员工告诉我说... 我朋友他们搭的那班飞机... 没有票了...
har..?? 怎么办...?? 要自己一个人搭飞机吗...??
正当我们打算买另一班的机票时...
突然间...
那位员工告诉我... 又有票了...
(爸爸说可能是其他人book了没来买..)
突然觉得很奇妙...
是神的旨意吧... 虽然我不知道为什么...
我... 选择顺服...
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突然想起Form4时读过的一首PoeM...
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"The Road Not Taken"
TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood, (黄叶林中出条岔路)
And sorry I could not travel both (无奈一人难于兼顾)
And be one traveler, long I stood (顺着一条婉蜒小路)
And looked down one as far as I could (久久伫立极目远眺)
To where it bent in the undergrowth; (只见小径拐进灌木)
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Then took the other, as just as fair, (接着选择了另一条)
And having perhaps the better claim (同样清楚似乎更好)
Because it was grassy and wanted wear; (引人踩踏铺满茂草)
Though as for that, the passing there (踏在其间难分彼此)
Had worn them really about the same, (尽管真有两条道)
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And both that morning equally lay (清晨里躺着两条路)
In leaves no step had trodden black. (一样叶被无人踏脏)
Oh, I marked the first for another day! (愿将第一条来日补)
Yet knowing how way leads on to way (但知条条相连远途)
I doubted if I should ever come back. (怀疑日后怎能回返)
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I shall be telling this with a sigh (在很久以后某一地)
Somewhere ages and ages hence: (我将叹息诉说于人)
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, (两路岔开在树林里)
I took the one less traveled by, (我选的那条足迹稀)
And that has made all the difference. (而一切差别由此起)
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心情... 就像诗人一样...
两条路.. "留下"和"离开"...
各自都有好有坏...
不同的是...
诗人选择了一条"人烟稀少"的路...
我则选了...大多数人会选的路...
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离开班上的朋友...
教会的朋友...
还有...
我的家人...
是的... 我很舍不得...
希望... 眼泪争气点... 不要哭啊...!!!
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主啊... 求袮带领我...!!
